—Parang Kayo, Pero Hindi Stage—
Saturday, December 30th, 2006Hahahaha ang cute nito wala lang i just love reading this one…kaka aliw totoo kasi eh.. hahahahhaha… well sa mga ganitong stage jan wake up.. hahahhahaha baka isa na kayo sa mga ganito.. hahahahahha… ayos.. toink toink toink…
The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo- boyfriends.
Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase
where the persons involved are more than friends, but not
quite lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala.
One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding
hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal
na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.
This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still
love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke
up for a reason. A nd for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na
muna magkabalikan.
It can also happen before a
relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw
niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.
Testing lang.
Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo
kasi isa sa inyo –usually the guy –may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang
hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break
siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para
nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."
Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan.
So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?
Iba’t ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang.
Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa w ala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom."
Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa
kunwa-kunwarian.
For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship
at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.
Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga
pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest
reason that they couldn’t commit, because they were either committed to
someone else, or that they weren’t ready to commit.
My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."
Ang
habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung
kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag
tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa
kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the
real thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.
But then I learned that although it was only a
pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind
of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi.
Una, you can’t ask him to
commit. Since it’s not really a relationship, you can’t demand
commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo
ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his
life. You can’t expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel
jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself.
Ano ka ba niya para magselos?
Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him?
You can’t be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can’t.
Because you’re not sure if he’ll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship.
Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much?
What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn’t?
What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other girls?
Isa
pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a
disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be
the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung
saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang
pinanghahawakan.
Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."
Buti
sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real
pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo- relationship, hindi mo
maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be
miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out
eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody
else.
Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then you’d end up hurting yourself in the process.
Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh.
Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences.
But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live
the
moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop
settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.
When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an
unavailable guy, a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil,
bahala ka.
Magpakasaya ka.
Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita."
Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.
Ihanda
mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero
hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang
siya …
almost, but not quite.
