The Real me

naahh… look at me… Ley look at me.. focus ka naman… grabe naman eh.. bakit naman biglaan ata… well definitely that’s me eh… walang magagawa dun… it has something to do with the way i act.. with the way i respond to my everyday activities… hahahaha gowshie!.. i had this dream last night.. although its quite exhausting but still i can recall all of its details naman… eventually bigla ko na lang naisip… hey.. why don’t you do something better for yourself… for once.. naahhh… oo i know marami akong obligations and responsibilities.. but hey… im still a human being who needs a brake and everything…lalo na sa mga guys… darn… i had this friend and what can i say.. Isa na ata siya sa pinaka ok na lalaki na nakilala ko.. pero hindi pa rin.. hahahha wala atang ganon… well mabait siya, cool… responsible…kuripot… astig… pero in the end…. kasama pa rin siya sa mga lahi ng kalalakihan… di makontento sa isang babae hahahah well given na un.. hahahahha sabagay enjoyin daw ang buhay binata… dahil minsan lang sila dadaan sa ganon… sabagay.. pero… uhm  i dont think so… so change topic..

Grabe napapaisip ako… meron akong gustong gawin.. and i know i can do it… in time.. pero im desperate for that thing… oo bagay lang siya pero para sa kin pag nabili ko na un… that’s one of my greatest achievement ever… well sa ngayon… hahahahha im looking forward…. im still young pero may deadline ako.. till next year… before ako mag 24…:)

hahahahahha grabe pag nakabili ako nun.. pagsisigawan ko sa buong mundo… na kahit ganito lang ako.. at least.. i have something to be proud of.. harharhahra go girl… kaya mo yan..

uhm again… sa lahat ng bagay…. sa simpleng plano pa rin nagsisimula yan… and ung mga steps na gagawin mo depende na sa u yon.. in my case.. its a high ladder to climb but im trying to reach the top… patiently….

i can do it….as always "Aim high…and hit the mark…"

Maraming Salamat sa mga oras na nanjan ka sa tabi ko para suportahan ako at alagaan….
Sa mga oras na kailangan ko ng karamay…. palaging nanjan ang kamay mo upang ako’y alalayan…
Sa mga oras na ako’y hunkag…. bose’s mo’y kaagapay..
Sa mga oras na ako’y bagsak at walang masandigan at madaingan… isang haplos mo lang tanggal ang lahat ng agam agam…

Sa mga oras na ako’y lasing at wala sa sarili….kandungan mo ang siyang nakaalalay… walang hanggang pang-unawa iyong pinatunayan..

Sa mga oras na ako’y makasarili… ika’y handang magparaya alang alang sa aking kasiyahan…

Sa mga oras na ako’y sawi at umiiyak… iyong yakap handang ialay…

Sa mga oras na ako’y nilalamig at may karamdaman… iyong pag-aalaga ay walang kapantay..

Sa mga oras na ako’y nilisan ng mahal sa buhay… Iyong pakikiramay walang katapusan…

Sa mga oras na ako’y nilalapastangan ng ibang tao… Iyong pagtatanggol ang siyang ipinakita…

Sa mga oras na ako’y masaya… ika’y nanjan upang ako’y samahan…

Sa mga oras na ako’y pagod at walang gana…. iyong masahe’y sapat na upang ako’y mapahinga..

Sa mga oras na ako’y naiirita…. isang patawa mo lang… ako’y ayos na…

Sa mga oras na ako’y nagiisip bata… sasabayan mo pa… isang masayang pagsasama iyong pinadama

Sa mga oras na ako’y nababaliw at nagtatakaw… iyong bulsa laging laan para lamang ako’y mapagbigyan…

Sa mga oras na ako’y walang magawa… isang tawag mo lang ako’y ok na…

Sa lahat ng ito…

Ika’y nanjan upang ako’y samahan…

maging ito man ay sa kasiyahan…kalungkutan… kalokohan… sa lahat ng bagay….

Sa lahat ng panahon… sa lahat ng segundo… sa bawat minuto… sa bawat oras… sa bawat araw…sa bawat buwan… sa bawat taon…. na dadating iyong pakatandaan na wala ng makakapantay sa yo… "Ng dahil sa mga panahong kailangan kita… hindi ako nabigo ni minsan… sa kabila ng aking pagkukulang…. iyong pagmamahal at wagas na pang-unawa iyong pinadama at pinatunayan…Wala na kong ibang mahihiling pa…. kung hindi sa paglipas ng panahon… ikaw pa rin ang taong kilala ko… na nanjan pa rin para sa taong tulad ko…. ang mga salitang ito’y hindi sapat sa kung sino ka at kung anong klaseng pagkatao meron ka… sapat na… na minsan sa buhay ko nabigyan ako ng pagkakataon na makilala ka… at ibigin ka…Maraming salamat sa walang sawang suporta… "

By the time the Lord made woman, He was into His sixth
  day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said,
  "Why are You spending so much time on this one?"

  And the Lord answered, "Have you seen My spec sheet on
  her? She has to be completely washable, but not
  plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
  and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a
  lap that can hold four children at one time, have a
  kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a
  broken heart -and she will do everything with only two
  hands."

  The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only
  two hands!? No way!
  And that’s just on the standard model? That’s too much
  work for one day.
  Wait until tomorrow to finish."

  But I won’t," the Lord protested. "I am so close to
  finishing this creation that is so close to My own
  heart. She already heals herself when she is sick
  AND can work 18 hour days."

  The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But
  You have made her so soft, Lord."

  "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made
  her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or
  accomplish."

  "Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

  The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think,
  she will be able to reason and negotiate."

  The angel then noticed something, and reaching out,
  touched the woman’s cheek. "Oops, it looks like You
  have a leak in this model. I told You! that You were
  trying to put too much into this one."

  "That’s not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that’s a
  tear!"
  "What’s the tear for! ?" the angel asked.
  The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her
  joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her
  love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

  The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord.
  You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

  And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They
  bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold
  happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to
  scream. They sing when they want to cry.They cry when
  they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They
  fight for what they believe in.

  They stand up to injustice.They don’t take "no" for an
  answer when they believe there is a better solution.
  They go without so their family can have. They go to
  the doctor with a frightened friend.They love
  unconditionally. They cry when their children excel
  and cheer when their friends get awards.They are happy
  when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their
  hearts break when a friend dies.They grieve at the
  loss of a family member, yet they are strong when
  they think there is no strength left.They know that a
  hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

  Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.They’ll
  drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much
  they care about you. The heart of a woman is what
  makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and
  love.They have compassion and ideals.They give moral
  support to their family and friends.

  Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
  HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,

  IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH…

Thanks Best for giving this passage.

As I read this email, I can’t help to think it and post it in my blog… Maybe we both believe in this principle in terms of love… that love is always a choice… we have to deal with it and make it work otherwise.. we will end up losing our life just by finding the perfect person for us…. wherein it does not truly exist….

During
one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She
said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that
there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that
your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you
know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s
weighing on your mind.

Here’s the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love.
With your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked
their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn’t hard. In fact, it
was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO
anything. That’s why it’s called "falling" in love…Because it’s
happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my
feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you
were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and
happened TO YOU. Falling is love is easy. It’s a passive and
spontaneous experience.

But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It’s
the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become
a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and
your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The
symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about
your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage
when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the
right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the
love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their
unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most
obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a
friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to
this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I’m not
saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could. And
TEMPORARILY you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few years
later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;
IT’S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or
spontaneous experience. It’ll NEVER just happen to you. You can’t
"find" LASTING love. You have to make" it day in and day out.
That’s why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it
takes time, effort, and energy, And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You
have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific
things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your
marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as
gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right
diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your
relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It’s a direct cause and effect.
If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable…you can
"make" love work.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"… Not just a feeling.