The Real me

Waaahhh =( 10 days straight from graveyard shift…. How i wish its already March 30…so that i can take my vacation…for just 2 days… sigh… im so tired this week… a lot of incidents came in and then talk to clients… im productive this week…. ola…. After talking to my friend Sally we planned to go somewhere relaxing where in we could enjoy the harmony of mother nature and for us to renew our Barkada bonding moments ever…. I hope we could have enough time to see each other and have some relaxations that’s free from the city and stress of the office… naaahhh…. im quite sleepy now…its 5:40 am and im still awake… well 1 more night in a graveyard shift and then yuhoooo….. swing shift again my favorite shift ever… umwah… see you all guys.. love yah…

After I watched the movie just like heaven…. i became emotional…maybe the movie gives some idea of how short life is….tears began to fell in my eyes… isn’t amazing that everyday… i woke up with the replenish strength coming from above…isn’t great that i have my life to spend with people i loved…. Life is short…so why waste it to our wrong decisions… why not spend it to someone you love..and enjoy the moments that your together… don’t over do yourself with the things that will not endure forever….You have your life to to live as if your the only one…who exist…. Live life to the fullest and enjoy every moments that you will capture from within… One thing I had learned in the movie… It’s not important to work 12-24 hours a day… it’s not important that you focused yourself in your dreams….and try to reach it for the rest of your life… it’s not important how many times you wake up early just to catch up with your way in the office… it’s not important how many programs you have created…it’s not important how much money have you raised in a year… it’s not important how many paper works you have written… BUT WHAT’s IMPORTANT is…you must LEARN HOW TO APPRECIATE YOUR LIFE… YOUR HAPPY…. YOURE ENJOYING THE MOMENTS THAT YOUR LIFE WILL LAST UPTO TO THE LAST SECONDS.. OF IT… Otherwise your a complete insane trying to live your life in a complete armour of NOTHING… nothing to live with because your life has no other things to cherished…there are no memories…left…because you invested your life in a situation of self imprisonment on the things…that are not relevant… that are not necessary for you to live more…instead you had build a life full of mess…. without your family by your side to support in your daily activities… you had no friends to talked to… and you don’t have a special someone….to spend your whole life with… SO FOR ALL OF YOU whose so insane spending your life with the things…that’s not that necessary… think it over and over again…before its too late… for me…I’m glad that i have my family, friends, and most of all my Knight and shining armour… to spend my life with…

Live life to the fullest….

What is the first thing that came into your mind when you heard the word "DENIAL"?? for me it is the state of an individual where she becomes really confused… on different life situations…what are the factors that leads to a confusion?? those are the questions that kept bugging my mind for a week… Why am i getting confused? Why denunciation takes place to my whole sensuality? Why do we have to attest our selves just for us to reveal our own comdemnation of our freedom… Sometimes people tend to rush things up, to the point that they are forgetting who they really are…and for those people…. sad to say that i am in the upper 50% of it…

Why Im too busy to get things done..?? i don’t know neither the answer… Im so confused right now….and i must admit that im in the denial state of my life…. to those of you to whom i can’t blend with…please accept my apology….for I don’t know neither the cause of my confusions…. I can’t explain all of your questions…. for I am weak….. and my relationship I can’t predict…

Cause I’m in the middle of nowhere… please do me a favor…if you know the hint….then be brave enough to face it….cause I will not gona tell you what you must do….for you to understand my changing moods….You have the right to stay…but don’t blame me….if it will leads you to the mocking door….for my apathy has already ended… there’s no turning back…. once the door has already closed….you must accept painfully no matter what it takes… you have your own life to deal with and mine is different….we have a different path to take…. Im totally confused….but i know in the end….everything will be clear enough….

—Denial soul kept longing for the contented soul…—

Today is the last day that i will live in your thoughts…. I will try to focus on the things that really matters to me…. although its quite tough to concentrate to my different priorities…. But i must…and i really need to do it…. I’m so proud of you…. and i will miss you…

Fly in your dreams….soar and have faith… I trust in you….

March already started and i can’t even notice the last days of february. Time tickles so fast that sometimes it reminds me of how things would be look like if 10-20 years from  now…. would I still be the person that i used to be right now??

Things constantly changing as new calamities arises in our country. As the years went through things were getting much complicated….not only in different tragedies here in the Philippines but also to other country…. war begins to tremble human being…..natures begins to moan for her lost beauty that  man had sacrificed just for the emerse of evolving technology….. Politics continue to soar like a dragon in the midst of the desert as the innocent alliance were forced to embrace the new changes that politics had to offer to each member….. 

The question is….. Who’s to blame for the different lives obstacles…. What’s the cause of mud slide in Leyte that killed over thousands of innocent people….. Who’s to blame to our political status as one of the corrupt government ever founded….. who’s to blame to the tragedy in Ultra that killed many youg Filipinos….. if only we have enough money to support our children I think the tragedy in ultra will not occur… if the government provided us with good economic standing…. im not saying that the government should give every filipino’s a good and stable job…but my point is…. each family member or parent should have their own stable source of income….for them to live accordingly…..

I grieve a lot when i noticed the sufferings of the filipinos…. we are all victims….. victims of unfortunate events in our life…. maybe GOD wants us to experience such things…. to point out that he still EXIST….so that we should have enough time to knelt down and pray even just for a moment….. maybe it’s a punishment…because as the years…went through…. we often neglect the most important above all…. which is our healthy relationship to our Lord and Personal saviour….

It is a sign that God begins to punish us…for being wicked… and for not trusting our lives to his own hands…. If all the filipino family will allow their time to put God in top of everything then those tragic moments in our life will turn to happines and contentment…hope we find the way….

Bring us back to you oh Lord….