The Real me

                Silence acts my grievances as I gently stretch my arms and legs in the place that I used to be. It was 8 in the morning, and everybody is leaving, except for me whose not yet awakened in the mid of fantasy. I don’t know where I am and in what part of the world I belong. What ever it is I’m sure that there’s a place for me to breath, to smile, to cry, to ponder, and to love.  I don’t know what my future is…I hate myself for being in this situation…—– I hate the silence and loneliness that’s killing my soul…As I lay down in the dark cold room. I wish that I will never be awakened with fear and horrible creatures that’s inside me.

Go—>> dig your own inspiration, with a sweet fruit of your labors, it is not yet late to reach for the planets of your own world and once you had given a hint there’s no turning back; where in you can rest in the arms of a hollow pride that’s dwelling in yourself…

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Not too late… approaching the right destination… at the right time..

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You had no right to judge my capability as a human being, you had no right to destroyed my future, you had no right to dictate to me the things that I already know. I’m not stupid and most of all I’m not "BELOW STANDARDS" you had no right to take my chances in the real world… you know why…? coz certainly I’m better than yours, maybe I’m not that good in dealing with "STUPID PERSON" as you are because I am born with a Halo…such an angel that could easily attract people and make them friends…I wanted you to know how stupid you are for not telling me the true reason for not having me in your damn world… Just wanted to remind you that your the "LOOSER" and your not an asset to the company… know why coz 99% of the employee there hates you for being a foolish ill headed person…. that acts like a LORD that must be pleased and must be adored ALWAYS… Well your wrong… your so insecure because you know that I had a lot that makes you mad…

For all the person that I had left behind don’t be foolish by their actions.. Their hiding from different masks of personality that you can even tell when they were going to kick your ass.. Watch out always… and make sure that you licked their butt for you to succeed in their damn World.. know what I mean…

Don’t worry Im so fine… and I’m happy cause I will not be able to see the world’s desperate person who’se so insecure to other people.. to the extent that they’ll do everything to make that people suffer…

New Life and a new beginning really awaits me in the outside world….

—>>> It started on the day that I thought that I’m going to be the happiest human being in the whole world…But in just a glimpse of my eyes it all vanished and turned my life into a mess that no one can ever,,,ever had imagine. As I stared in my window in the mid of the night, emptiness fills my soul and cause me to trembled, I had no reason to move backward to fixed the pieces of my tormented soul.

—The day has come that all of my efforts and sacrifices will not be counted and even if I strived harder there’s no other way to succeed. When I closed my eyes in that night, cold wind embraces my body and as I raised my voice no one can ever hear me… except for the little girl who  are always standing in front of my door. I don’t know her but all I know is that there’s something bothering her. I looked her in the eyes and try to read her mind but all I can see is an empty face, that telling me how to live in this world. As I open the mirror in my closet I always remember the girl that I used to be, a girl with full of passion, a girl with a lot of dreams, a girl who knows how to fight and win the game, and a girl who knows how to live with the indefinite world.

—As I turned the chapter of my life, memories always filled my soul especially with the person who taught me how to face the reality of life. That life is not just about being at the top, its not just about money, or success, or even riches… but life is something what you take and what you get to move on, to face the agony of every foot steps that your going to take as you passed to every life challenges. My mother always me taught me how to fight, how to move forward even though your deeply hurted with the unfortunate events in our lifes, she mold me to become flexible in every storm and calamities that along the way, she made me realize that living is building your own palace full of excitement and adventure but it depends on how am I going to build the palace of my own.

****  Last but not the least she taught me how to win the battle and how to live in this world that is full of hatred, anger, selfishness, and chaos,,, by having a good faith to the one who strengthens us in our everyday life. Before I end this up, let me take one foot step to the world that I am going to drive to give me enough strength, encouragement, intelligence, and most of all LOVE to survive and to accomplish the mission that I am going to pursue whatever it takes.